Allowing Myself to Be Seen- The Way of Phi in Practice -

Dear friends,

It might sound strange, but I rarely feel seen.

And perhaps even stranger if you've met me—considering I'm almost two metres tall (6'4"), often wear flamboyant clothes, and tend to have a presence people remember. I speak my mind. I’m not exactly hiding.

So yes, I get attention. Without trying, I might add.

But I’m quite shy.

Actually, I am.

And yet, I’ve learned how to dance with it.

It’s not that I’m always shy. Sometimes I love the limelight. More often than not, I feel energised on stage or while leading a workshop. I used to get nervous, sure—but after rising to the occasion enough times, that nervousness has transformed into something closer to excitement. A spark at the start.

But I’m not always extroverted. I need to turn inward. To rest in the quiet. To not be seen.

These past months, I’ve been more visible than I have in years. And I like it. But as the wave rises and crashes, I withdraw again. That’s the rhythm. That’s the balance.

The Ultimate Test

Becoming fully visible feels vulnerable—not because people might dislike something about me. That used to worry me (not surprisingly—I was bullied as a child). But now? Honestly, that kind of criticism barely touches me. Maybe I’ve just been through it enough times. Maybe I’ve grown stronger. I still feel the sting sometimes… but so what? That’s a pain I can handle.

No—what truly scares me is being judged for something I care about. Something that carries my heart.

Like my book.

I care deeply about The Way of Phi. I want the world to see it, read it, breathe it in.

And truthfully—it’s been a slow start. Why? I’m not entirely sure. Maybe it’s because shouting from the rooftops about something sacred feels… terrifying.

But I’ll do it anyway.

MY BOOK IS AMAZING!

There. I said it.

Because this is the ultimate test: not selling something I can do, but offering something I must share. Not playing a role, but showing my soul.

That’s the edge I’m walking now.

So, to round this off…

If you’ve read the book, thank you. If it moved you—please tell someone. And if you haven’t yet… maybe today is the day?

Because The Way of Phi is ABOUT YOU!

Find your copy here: https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B0DMHBCDLQ

Let’s bring in this new renaissance together!

With love and presence, 

Christopher